Realization: I am fucking terrified of college.

Today we had a guidance meeting thing, whatever it was, during English. They gave us this website to go on to and find colleges, and it gives you a ton of info on the colleges. But now I know everything colleges are looking for, and we're finding out our GPA soon, and suddenly for one of the very very few times in my life, I'm scared. I doubt my GPA is high enough for half of these colleges, and I don't know how to raise it. I know I want to major in psychology, I just don't know what job I'll get after I manage that. I want to major in Creative Writing, and have no idea if I'm cut out for it in reality. I want to get at least a bachelor's in photography, and there's only one college that will offer it to me. And again, I have no idea if I'm actually cut out for that. I was never scared of college before. I was never scared of the future before. I've never been scared of much before. But I am now. I'm not scared of what it'll be like once I'm IN college, it's getting accepted or rejected that I'm scared of, and what I'll be able to do after I get out of whatever college I go to.