Jaclyn, I know you're going to read this, and it's mostly for you.
You kind of make me feel like someone understands. Like feeling this way isn't as weird as I think it is sometimes., and that the way I think isn't so out there. And maybe it will go away, or maybe it won't. But maybe it doesn't even matter in the end. Maybe everyone feels this way at some point, and maybe almost no one does. Maybe it's only me, you, and whoever comes up with all these quotes. But it just feels better that we're not completely alone. Maybe we're the normal ones, and everyone else is weird for not being like us.
I want you to know that if you cry for no reason, I'm probably crying with you, and that when you can't explain why you're sad, I won't ask you to. I'll know that you can't. Or even if you can, I'll know that you probably won't want to. And when you feel like being surrounded isn't what you need, and being alone isn't what you want, I'm somewhere feeling the same way. So, in a way, we're together, without actually having anyone around. All in all, I'm trying to say thanks, for giving me something to connect with. Whether it's you, or that quote, or just the fact that this is out there.
Thank you. I mean it.
You kind of make me feel like someone understands. Like feeling this way isn't as weird as I think it is sometimes., and that the way I think isn't so out there. And maybe it will go away, or maybe it won't. But maybe it doesn't even matter in the end. Maybe everyone feels this way at some point, and maybe almost no one does. Maybe it's only me, you, and whoever comes up with all these quotes. But it just feels better that we're not completely alone. Maybe we're the normal ones, and everyone else is weird for not being like us.
I want you to know that if you cry for no reason, I'm probably crying with you, and that when you can't explain why you're sad, I won't ask you to. I'll know that you can't. Or even if you can, I'll know that you probably won't want to. And when you feel like being surrounded isn't what you need, and being alone isn't what you want, I'm somewhere feeling the same way. So, in a way, we're together, without actually having anyone around. All in all, I'm trying to say thanks, for giving me something to connect with. Whether it's you, or that quote, or just the fact that this is out there.
Thank you. I mean it.
Kristin, this meant so so much.
ReplyDeleteWhat I'm going to say next ruins it.
It never goes away. It's going to stay forever.
But then again, maybe that's just me.
Either way, you need it in life. The only reason I know is because I've had it for so long. Being happy and sad at the same time, sometimes it just feel right. Like that's the kind of breed you were meant to me. It was the kind I was meant to be. Some call it depression, my dad calls it being a loner. I like being a loner when I don't fuck myself over. But that's rare.
Good luck on your journey, I'm just a little ahead. You know where I'll be.
I know it's probably going to stay forever, don't feel like you're ruining it.
ReplyDeleteI know that even if it feels like it goes away for a little while, it's not gone. It'll always be there.
I can hope that it'll go away someday, for both of us. But I also know to accept the fact that it won't.
But I like what you said, that sometimes it just feels right. And that it's the kind we're meant to be.
It's nice that I'll know where to find you.